my wish

today's national day and we had pot luck at ruth's. had fun!

Sometimes its hard not to think about it. I know I'm not alone and there are people with me too but everyone's feeling different and the feelings tonight just kinda dont feel good. Sometimes i just feel like telling you "dude, i'm right here, why won't you talk to me?" i dont want to be the one having to take the initiative cause i'm the girl and i really don't like it. Dude, you're so insensitive. I'm trying not to think about it anymore but they just keep coming back. Tonight's just one of the lonely nights again and it's annoying to see you online and not talking to me and then the next moment you're offline. There's so much I wanna tell/ talk to you about and i'm wanting so much for a private time for us to talk things out alone but it always seems like we're always surrounded by people. people that are not supposed to know about us or people that would talk about us. It's really hard. Maybe you're happier. And the least i can do is hope that you really are.




Oh, you would find God's grace in every mistake
And always give more than you take

But more than anything, yeah more than anything


My wish for you

Is that this life becomes all that you want it to

Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small

You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you're out there gettin' to where you're gettin' to
I hope you know somebody loves you


And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish.

kiss those fun goodbye & it's time to grow up.

wow its like ages since i ever posted. i'm finally settling down back in singapore after all the busy schedule, camps and trips of dec. after hockey trip (malaysia), obs, sea games (laos) and cambodia.

CAMBODIAAA!

how much i miss that place. The simplicity of the children and the place. The beauty of the sky and the ten over thousands of stars that just shine so brightly in your face that you think you can reach and pluck one down but no hahah you cant. The simplicity of life there. The children. How they can be so easily contented with the small little things that they received and even just at the sight of new friends. I just love them. I'm missing all the children at the church there, HANNAH, RUTH, JOHN, JACOB, CALEB and all the other children there. How all of us just broke down on the last day of camp crying our hearts out. I dont mind going back there and staying for a month or two. I want to.

I just thank God for how he've placed so many impt ppl in my life and how he've just showed himself so strong and real to me in my life. I just thank God for my sisters, Charmaine and Lynn Shan and all the GG session that we had at night till 3 plus 4 in the morning. red, black,brown,pink,green,orange,yellow,lime,apple small apples,carrot and so many more. haha insider jokes(:

I WILL GROW UP AND START SERIOUS STUDIES! (:

a different boom.

ayg beach volleyball was awesome but i got lots of tan mark now, i think they're gross:(

swimming too.

where were you when i needed you most?

you never know how it feels.

it's like a rollercoaster, up and down.

i've wished too much.

if you say so and you alrd think that way i see no point in changinig your mindset and thinking.honestly, i dont really care much alrd.

i realised how shallow i was in God's word.

man so many things happened this june hols first it was instructors camp following it was the actual ytsa 5th batch camp. singapore was the name of my group and we mirrored with yamen had fun and we won the best night performance for the campfire totallylove singamen.

then had our very own ytsa soccer tournament.was great.

the day before ytd was our chalet for the instructors it was fun played arcade with xinyu, illina and sam while the others were swimming. super fun haha xinyu treat then when back for bbq and i watched tv.played thru the night and slept only at five and woke up at eight.:) then 8.30 we went swimming again talked a lot then when for training in the afternoon after checked out.

finish STRONG

the past few days been tiring, there's so much to thank God for

sat to sun :was camp ytsa leader camp.

met a lot of new ppl edwin,nicole,weiming ,darren,

and many more.was quite scary but thank God

that i've survived the camp. was great overall.

mon:stayed at home was break for me:)

tues: training was kind of okay.

but was tiring then went to eat macs breakfast

with nicole sam christina and mr francis. then homed:)

wed: breaked for me again yeah to rest

thurs: today training again. coach didnt come so

hema came cause we didnt do the chicken dance

we got punishment had to sprint like mad like seriously mad

10 sprints diagonally across the pitch then she wasnt happy

with our performance cause we didnt listen and trained hard

enough so we had to do 2.4km for warm down. crap warm down 2.4km.

but thank God that we survived all those running.

well down hockers.

DONT GIVE UP,FINISH STRONG

what else do you bring besides than troubles?

yeah many things happened today got good got bad ms sanira tell us our class position yay i got sixth in class i think thats good enough la for all my eforts:) then left school early for hockey umpiring for the theory part it was actually quite boring then our school ppl started eating and munching on snacks to keep ourselves awake then we had the practical part it was quite funny la cause like we had so many ppl from our school so we formed a team and the other school formed another team.but in the middle of the game i accidentally hit this guy eyes (p.s sorry much sorry) and somemore this morning in training i hit nicole mouth too :( sorryyyy too but i guess it was quite fun after all i hv to admit :)

p.s worrying for casz
casz:you're part of april riot we still need you man cheer up yo you got us real friends yknow what i mean take care

it was great

just home abt half an hour ago:) went for midsummer night dreams play this evening was alright
met celia, mandy,fran,casz,lingmin,yingjia,brid,mart,abby,caryn,chel.w,shenru,yolala and cheryl and i guess thats all
after the play went to eat subway and there was this grp of funny ppl weird but funny la
talk talk and camwhored like mad then homed with yj long story but today was awesome with so many ppl around
zara's going to be back tmr she better get me stuff
teehee
APRIL RIOT STILL LIVING:)

mon training was quite intensive cause of the physical was the first training after so long and it gives muscle ache homed with sam and marsya after so long finally homed with marsya:)

tues training was alright

todays training die muscle cramps like mad and tmr still got training four in a row and maybe fri got training too:(

Haha today’s chem.
Paper was ok but I think I screwed up
bio and Amaths paper.
Went to hv mcdonald breakfast
with zara,casz,mandy and caryn
frigging funny then came this
two lians wanna be we especially casz
disturbed them like mad hahahah
frigging funny

GOING FOR AYG!
But casz cant go
Having her around make me laugh like mad
–and all her nonsensical shut up and drive drive drive


O with what art you sway the motions of her heart

(L)

Back since such a long while. Things been cramping up together classes and lessons one after another and only home at 6plus. Screwed up social studies paper and eng paper 1L cheer up yo why are ppl so sad these days?

Everytime it happens you make me feel lost in love.screaming out (L)

april riot-no.3

Boreddd. So many things happened today. APRIL RIOT-NO.3 francesca,caszella,me and mandy. Cause we skipped Chinese class for like 25 mins we may have to detention freak with germaine. Yeah had sports heat today ran for the 80 and 200m we weren’t competing against our competitors we were competing against time.

200m-36 sec SLOW

Frigging slow

My brain’s in a mess now.Confused.

EFL CAMP

Woah efl camp is finally over went to Malaysia pahang tekam plantation for 5 days long story didn’t get to go with 3d but still had fun with them on the last night and on the way back to Singapore. Had rafting, caving, outdoor cooking, abseiling, rock climbing and many more love efl (: stuck with all my holiday homework

The more adults try to threaten the child, the more he/she will go against you and revolt against you. I don’t like the way you adults do things you complicate matters and you adults always get your ways by threatening us. I don’t like the adult world. I got enough problems on my hands so stop adding to it. Getting tutors for your child should be done only after getting his or her opinion cause even if you adults got a million reasons about why you should get tutors for your child, and your child disagree it would be of no use. Even if you spend all your money on hiring the best tutor, and your child still disagree it would really be of no use. Having tuition for the child is done during his/her time, adding another heavy load of homework onto him/her. So you adults should stop thinking everything should be done your way and the way you want it to be, it of total no use. Why don’t you adult get simple logic into your brains.

I love bryan the 4 year old one he’s so cute he’s in nursery.

dead beat

exams this week tired from studying:( but get back my chinese paper today topped my class yayyy but there was only four ppl who passed so like yeah. and sprain my ankle pulled the ligament and there’s some internal bleeding or something like that:( have 45 days mc but i gave the 10 day one its retarded not to exercise for 45 days and my ankle is dieing on me soon in 6 days it cracked 92 times tired tired tired

ages.

Woah its has been long since I last posted today’s a Sunday so went to church in the morning as usual then went for nursery. Then lunched and finally Luzerne passed us the lit notes. Much Thanks to charmaine pek and Luzerne. And we had vibe kitchen crew meeting I wanted to be in the main cooking team but because tuition always end so late I had to join the washing team then marcus said there were new positions to be filled such as the kitchen head and so. Hahah so I decided to be the kitchen head I get to use a walkie talkie fun(: hahhaha then homed and had to continue with my three half doned essays. Wow! And happy valentine day to all (belated one though) and happy birthday to teddy owner(: love you and that about it gng back to my essays):

I’ve failed. Terribly. Even when this afternoon I just tried to cheer someone up and when I just told someone that everything now is just earthly problems and we should just wait for our God to take us back and we will all be happy but I failed myself. I failed to do what I say. Now I feel what you must have felt.

I remember you asking me whether we are actually close and do I really trust you? No, we aren’t and I don’t. thanks a lot for ruining everything. And you, when I say I don’t want means I really don’t want you get it stop forcing me to do your way and so you call all this togetherness? Wow, you amazed me. I used to love talking a lot to you and I can just rant and rattle abt everything and anything but thanks you just allowed me to hate it with you around. I don’t want to say I hate you and so I shall just say im pissed with you freako yes I am pissed frigging pissed off with you. Freak. Oh whatever I cant be bothered anymore. That’s it.

Sorrys.

Ok it’s been a few days since I lasted posted yeah everyday got like training training training blahhhh nvm school’s allright just that I always sleep for the first three periods f the day im tired not my fault la and I slept during a maths class and now I don’t know what surds is all about crap can someone, some good person teach me im frigging lost of this topic and im going to die ): rawr anyway to 2bernadette: this year’s house practice would be tug of war anybody interested to join pls contact me and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SISKA & DANIELLE! And for vibe im sorry for the sucky attitude that I gave to those who showed their concern to me. im fine and so are my hands yeah. AND who said that a hyper active someone so ever happy looking and always having a smile on her face to you cant have her downs. Sorry&Tc.

pretty quotes. I BELIEVE YOU.

Oh today was quite good cause out of the whole week only today I got no training yay teehee went to vivo with ophe and yijing walked around went to F.O.S and saw a lot of pretty pretty tops im going to save oney to buy them hahah. And we went to this arts shop okay all the things there were frigging ex can so me and ophe decided to save a dollar everyday to buy the things that we want in the shop. Hah good plan with ophe. Then homed back alrd. Oh and I read the nice nice book I BELIEVE YOU by LOW KAY HWA but I read halfway then the com something wrong ): is there like anybody out there who has his books I want to read them badly ): and these are pretty quotes from the story.

“I am just like the sun and you the flower. I’ll provide sunlight for you to blossom. Sometimes, clouds will prevent me from reaching you. But you’ll know that I’m always trying to reach you. Just wait for the clouds to clear if you can’t receive my sunlight.”

“Remember: To be happy, you either change the world, or you change your thinking. To be realistic, you have to change your thinking to be happy. But me, I will change the world for you.”

“Two A.M and the rain is fallingHere we are at the crossroads once againYou’re telling me you’re so confusedYou can’t make up your mindIs this meant to beYou’re asking me”

HAPPY BIRTHDAYS

Okay today was alright. Chem. Lesson was fun we got to play with flour with water that changes from liquid state to solid state and then back to the liquid state again and over again. Cool yeah hahah I was amazed. Haha then lit was fine but I slept in maths and bio ): uncontrollable la huh hahah. Chinese was okay that’s all for studies. Had training after that was quite okay and coach was happy for our performance yay. (: hahah and mr francis gave us chocolate for the very first time ahhuh and I got two of them hahahah yeah then went to meet some of the rest for hanniel’s birthday party. quite okay. Charmaine, yufei, giolo, zenia, nerissa, Luzerne, hock cai, joel, Daniel, sicheng, aika, shekinah, jonyuen, Samantha and me went. Had kfc for dinner then went to nearby hanniel’s hse to play captain ball and the ball went into the sewage. Giolo went down to get the ball but on the way up while Luzerne and I guess hanniel was pulling him up he cut himself ): and the blurest of all hock cai quietly went into the sewage wanting to get the ball when giolo alrd came up with the ball. Okay whatever it was just pure funny if you’re not that you wouldn’t hv known and seen how funny it was can. A bit more of playing then we separated ways and walked home alrd. That’s all im tired to do homework so im not doing hahaha. Today was great. (: anyway happy blessed birthday to Rachel and hanniel!

today is a happy day(:

Hello(: today’s great. Maths teacher wasn’t around and didn’t had to bring any books to school so yeah awesome hahah had photo taking for sports leader and I guess there;s going to be a lot of things to do this year cause there’s YOG and stuff. Oh cool yknow what brigette’s taking part for the YOG for wind surfing no wonder she so tan can tanner than me la cool man. Decorated our class and stuff. PE wasfun cause we played volleyball although it rained a little. Social studies was not too bad cause teacher told us funny story and after that I homed alone today. Nvm ophe its okay you didn’t homed with me(: hahah then this two retarded guys alighted the bus at home team ns there and sat behind me and talked like frigging out can. And when I took out my ipod they were like discussing where I got my ipod from. Original one or pasa malam buy one I was like whatever la.they say don’t know what must see the ipod word behind then is original one like hello ppl do put ipod skin cover okay. Hahah but anyway today had been great and Im happy hahah.